I came from an average family, my parents loved me and I never really have lack. But I didn’t like studying and always fail my exams. That makes my parents very disappointed. Many times they would compare me with better relatives or friends, thinking that it’ll spur me up to study hard, but it only made me feel lousy about myself.

When I was in primary school, my teachers would call me stupid for not about to do well in studies. That left a scar in my heart; I grew up thinking I am stupid and not cut for studying. I loved drawing, but my teachers would say there’s no future in drawing cartoons, I was really discouraged because that what I was good at.

Though I have friends, but I didn’t dare to express myself to them, afraid they might look down on me. Whenever I talked to people, I would feel very inferior to them. As a result, I became closed up and did not share much with anybody. I kept everything to myself, I thought nobody believed in me anyways. My self-esteem was damage as well.

Because of these, my results didn’t improve; as a result I ended up in Normal Technical stream in secondary school. I felt embarrass whenever people asked about my studies. It comes to the point I thought the world judge people base on their qualifications.

I attended a church since young. But I never really know what Christianity was all about. They only thing that kept me going was to listen to bible stories. Sometimes it’s a drag to go, and my mother would nag me to go. I’ll always remember that Jesus loves me, because it comforts me to hear those words. But I never fully understand its meaning. I learn a lot in church, in what’s right and what’s wrong. It was then I became very judgmental, while people judge me on my qualification, I’ll judge their moral values. I became self righteous. But my esteem problem wasn’t deal with; I didn’t dare to talk in front of large crowds of people. I didn’t have a lot of friends because of my attitude.

These continue until I’m graduating from secondary school. Once again I felt very discouraged when I know I’m going ITE. I was lost and don’t know what to do. I always liked art, drawing and animations. So happen at the year of my intake, they have a new course call, digital media design. It was exactly what I liked to do, drawing and designing. I immediately sign up for that. At that time I didn’t know that God has been preparing me for this and has a great plan for me.

In ITE, I really enjoyed myself, and I did well for my projects and even got full marks for the 1st quarter of the course. My confidence begins to pick up, but I felt something is still missing in me. That’s when I met a friend, we got along well, I really felt accepted because we shared the same interest. It wasn’t long before she invited me to her church, City Harvest. I was quite offended back then, because I heard a lot of bad reports of the church, I hesitated about going, but I decided to because she was my good friend.

The first time I visit the church, I was shocked, the atmosphere was so different from my previous church, I could really feel peace in my heart. I continue going for a few times, during one of the service, I was touched by God and I rededicate my life to Him again. H reminded me that I’m worth more than my qualifications; I’m worth the blood of Jesus Christ. Christianity is not a religion, not to just keep laws, but it’s a relationship, where every day you need to talk to God. I really experienced the unconditional love of God.

My life took a total change, though it was not immediate but slowly I became more eloquent and I have a healthy self esteem. In ITE, I became the top 3 ITE graduate in the whole of Singapore. God put me through tough times, so that I can get into ITE and get the best.

The change was evident, from an introvert I became more outspoken, fulfilling my destiny and I made great friends in church that I know they’ll stand with me whatever happens. I can start a new The story continues, God is constantly changing me to a better person. And now I’m studying in NAFA, doing fine arts. Truly God has restored me, not just in my studies, but also my heart was healed. God really prove the teachers wrong, I’m working as an Illustrator! Praise the Lord.

Christianity is not a religion; it’s a relationship, Jesus wants to restore what is missing in us, He came to die for our sins. While we were imperfect, He perfected us. In Christ, you can start all over again in life, all your weaknesses and defeats can be turned around to become your success!

 
 
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That's me in RED w Specs beside my Hot pink shirt friend when i first came to church. (:
I was born into a christian family. But I never really felt like a christian. I simply just followed my parents as they went to church and bible studies. I joined children's church when I was younger.I learnt to use vulgar languages when I was 5 years old. Threw a chair at my little brother when I was 7 years old,causing him to have a huge balaku and me, caning from my parents. I Hid under an umbrella with my little brother in the house,and played with it till the umbrella kinda ripped a part of my bro's hair off. >.<

Later in primary four, I was so naughty that my dad made me write a journal book stating what i was doing from what time to what time in order to track me down. I fought w guys in primary school too. yeah not your perfect little christian child.Yes I read the bible here and there. prayed too. but God was just god to me. I didnt have a relationship with him. In secondary school, I had a few boyfriends and was hurt by them too. almost ran away from home. I Did rather badly in my studies and ended up in private school. I could'nt stand myself, the position I was in.

Then there was a nudging in my heart. Like an inner voice. That I could faintly hear. 

My friend had invited me to church when I was in Sec 1. I stayed but had to leave because my family wanted me to be in the same church as them. But I had turned rebellious and chose to rebel against them as I felt they forced me to go to their church. I skipped church for awhile, then eventually I backslided. 

But God reminded me abt the fun I had in church. About the people. About the bible study I had. I still remember my first bible study teacher. she's a CGL for awhile alr now. God reminded me how I seeked him and I prayed and how he answered my prayers when I cried out to him. He reminded me about how I sat in my room with all the lights off. I prayed silently to him.
 
So one day, I took up the courage. And I called up my friend. And told her I wanted to come back to church. I was quite on and off in the beginning. I even said I was sick and didnt go church when I was'nt sick at all. sad but that was me last time. But God had put great leaders in my life. Who stood by me. Helped me along during my challenges and laughed with me when I went through all my joyful moments. 

Slowly I began transforming into a better person. To what I am today. God has truly changed my life.In fact one of my leaders actually told me that I had changed a 180 degrees!

Today, I am currently studying my degree in Mass Communications in SIM and I am a HR Assistant in a new company being able to earn almost $2K! Praise God! And by his grace I have been a connect group leader for 2years! God is so awesome! 

I can't imagine what I would be doing now if i had'nt listened to that still small voice and came back to him. I learnt that even though I was faraway from him, But yet he never left me and was so close to me. He really does love me w an everlasting lovee. ((:

God'll love you just as much as he did to me.If you'll allow him, he'll mould you, transform you, teach you.Soften your hearts, and he'll touch your life. Only if you're willing. (:


"Your ears shall hear a word behind you saying,
"This is the way walk in it,
"Whenever you turn to the right hand or 
whenever you turn to the left." Isaiah 30:21