I was listening to the songs I used to sing when I first came to City Harvest, Songs by Delirious?: 
Rain Down
Paint the Town Red
Did you feel the Mountains tremble
Majesty (Here I am)

and then I came across Delirious? website, which has a blog. This is what Martin Smith the singer said: " We never had a number one single, we never played top of the pops, we never had a platinum record. But we stayed together for 17 years and gave it everything we could. We loved it; saw people’s faces light up. We played in more than 40 countries, saw heaven touch earth and saw ordinary people believe they could be history makers. I can remember so many of them: people from all walks of life realising they were part of a bigger story, a treasured and vital part of his story." 

As I listened to Majesty(Here I am), I was reminded about the book I read, Phil Pringle- You the Leader. He quoted someone saying: "Only the heart can learn to preach." Truly indeed, only the heart, words that come out from the heart, can preach, songs that are sang from the heart can move. 

I was brought into flashback of all the first times I had with God.
The first time I entered CHC
The first Time I Jumped in praise with my friend in church
The first time I found out that there was really a Real God 
The first time I realised God was so fun
The First time I lifted my hands in worship to God
The First time I had bible Study
The First time I was truly touched by God
The First time I felt REAL TRUE JOY in my heart I never experienced before
and all the times i sat in my room, weeping, and with tears dripping on my bible, 
God was there in my room beside me, embracing me with love and his words of encouragement.

Why are we here for?
What are we doing? 

God reminded me once again, everything we have, everything we do is for his glory, for his purpose and for his power to move in the hearts of his people, with love and real joy that causes true life transformation. 

That's what Church is all about. 
That's why our friends need to get saved. 
Thats why we need to stop procrastinating and start loving God with all your heart, with everything you've got. 

This is what God is truly all about. 
Do you know him? 

love,
ame

I am thankful,
For the wife who says it’s hot dogs tonight,
Because she is home with me, and not out with someone else.

For the husband who is on the sofa being a couch potato,
Because he is home with me and not out at the bars.

For the teenager who is complaining about doing dishes,
Because it means she is at home, not on the streets.

For the taxes I pay,
Because it means I am employed.

For the mess to clean after a party,
Because it means I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit alittle too snug,
Because it means I have enough to eat.

For the shadow that watches me work,
Because it means I am out in the sunshine.

For a lawn that need mowing,
Windows that need cleaning,
And gutters that need fixing,
Because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government,
Because it means we have freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot,
Because it means I am capable of walking and I’ve been blessed with transportation.

For my huge heating bill,
Because it means I am warm.

For the lady behind me in church who sings off key,
Because it means I can hear.

For the pile of laundry and ironing,
Because it means I have clothes to wear.

For the weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day,
Because it means I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours,
Because it means I am alive.
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It's the Simple gratitude to the things around you instead of complaining.
God loves hearts filled with Thanksgiving.
Start to Thank god for all the little things!

love, ame <3

I came from an average family, my parents loved me and I never really have lack. But I didn’t like studying and always fail my exams. That makes my parents very disappointed. Many times they would compare me with better relatives or friends, thinking that it’ll spur me up to study hard, but it only made me feel lousy about myself.

When I was in primary school, my teachers would call me stupid for not about to do well in studies. That left a scar in my heart; I grew up thinking I am stupid and not cut for studying. I loved drawing, but my teachers would say there’s no future in drawing cartoons, I was really discouraged because that what I was good at.

Though I have friends, but I didn’t dare to express myself to them, afraid they might look down on me. Whenever I talked to people, I would feel very inferior to them. As a result, I became closed up and did not share much with anybody. I kept everything to myself, I thought nobody believed in me anyways. My self-esteem was damage as well.

Because of these, my results didn’t improve; as a result I ended up in Normal Technical stream in secondary school. I felt embarrass whenever people asked about my studies. It comes to the point I thought the world judge people base on their qualifications.

I attended a church since young. But I never really know what Christianity was all about. They only thing that kept me going was to listen to bible stories. Sometimes it’s a drag to go, and my mother would nag me to go. I’ll always remember that Jesus loves me, because it comforts me to hear those words. But I never fully understand its meaning. I learn a lot in church, in what’s right and what’s wrong. It was then I became very judgmental, while people judge me on my qualification, I’ll judge their moral values. I became self righteous. But my esteem problem wasn’t deal with; I didn’t dare to talk in front of large crowds of people. I didn’t have a lot of friends because of my attitude.

These continue until I’m graduating from secondary school. Once again I felt very discouraged when I know I’m going ITE. I was lost and don’t know what to do. I always liked art, drawing and animations. So happen at the year of my intake, they have a new course call, digital media design. It was exactly what I liked to do, drawing and designing. I immediately sign up for that. At that time I didn’t know that God has been preparing me for this and has a great plan for me.

In ITE, I really enjoyed myself, and I did well for my projects and even got full marks for the 1st quarter of the course. My confidence begins to pick up, but I felt something is still missing in me. That’s when I met a friend, we got along well, I really felt accepted because we shared the same interest. It wasn’t long before she invited me to her church, City Harvest. I was quite offended back then, because I heard a lot of bad reports of the church, I hesitated about going, but I decided to because she was my good friend.

The first time I visit the church, I was shocked, the atmosphere was so different from my previous church, I could really feel peace in my heart. I continue going for a few times, during one of the service, I was touched by God and I rededicate my life to Him again. H reminded me that I’m worth more than my qualifications; I’m worth the blood of Jesus Christ. Christianity is not a religion, not to just keep laws, but it’s a relationship, where every day you need to talk to God. I really experienced the unconditional love of God.

My life took a total change, though it was not immediate but slowly I became more eloquent and I have a healthy self esteem. In ITE, I became the top 3 ITE graduate in the whole of Singapore. God put me through tough times, so that I can get into ITE and get the best.

The change was evident, from an introvert I became more outspoken, fulfilling my destiny and I made great friends in church that I know they’ll stand with me whatever happens. I can start a new The story continues, God is constantly changing me to a better person. And now I’m studying in NAFA, doing fine arts. Truly God has restored me, not just in my studies, but also my heart was healed. God really prove the teachers wrong, I’m working as an Illustrator! Praise the Lord.

Christianity is not a religion; it’s a relationship, Jesus wants to restore what is missing in us, He came to die for our sins. While we were imperfect, He perfected us. In Christ, you can start all over again in life, all your weaknesses and defeats can be turned around to become your success!